Resilient diplomacy

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September 17

Camels are yelling into my apartment and it sounds like this::

Look what we’re doing to you. Look how small your genitals are. We’re making you well. We’re installing a homulculus in you so you can hear yourself think. You think we’re so dumb. You say we’re blocking your thinking. You just think you are so smart.

Let us have our way or we will kill you. We will go back into Afghanistan. Pakistan, Iran and Uzbek who think if they provide low level resistance they can avoid the mega-death effects of a nuclear war.

We want you to fight the Navy for us. We’re the FBI and the Navy thinks they are so smart. You didn’t really want to have an ROTC scholarship or you would have asked the Navy if they had forgotten you. If you think this is the tip of an iceberg then you are pretending to be mentally ill. We’re going to make you well.

Is it hot in your apartment? Does it smell like cigar smoke and burning tires in your apartment? You had better let us win. You are all by yourself. Those people you can hear who like your poetry aren’t helping you. We’re your only.

We’re the FBI – we’re better than Interpol. We’re banning the Interpol from the United States. We’re helping NPR and John Kerry slow walk the climate accords and peace in the Middle East so we can soak up a one hundred trillion dollar oil war chest to put us in power forever.

It’s not true the Liberals in Toronto are calling talk radio and saying that Erin O’Toole is Canada’s Larry Elder. We’re going to ban Interpol and the United Nations and the EU in Canada – even in the Quebec Maritimes.

Your wife is pretty so we get her. There are pretty ladies at your place so we are switching ladies with you. Your kids are sh*t for trying to help you by writing websites.

F you! You are just making that stuff up. We’re still talking to you below the threshold of hearing and making you have day dreams to straighten out your attempt to pretend to not want to be locked in with the mentally ill which is your real objective.

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Early September 19

Camel:

There’s really not much to writing poetry.  People who work with their hands are a lot more talented.

And on and on.

Author:

You mean that if I am not seeking your approval then I am suffering delusions of grandeur.  You are a lot less likely to happen to someone if he or she is in God’s country.  Do you think you can induce psychosis in me by walking me through mental wars?

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September 23

Camel:

You’re not supposed to hear this. This is supposed to be below the threshold of hearing for your subconscious.

We’re playing square wave signals at the same time to make it difficult to think while we’re making a Manchurian candidate out of you.

Get angry. Get angry. We want you to be angry when we talk about sex so you will adopt angry sex as your modus operandi. Sex. Sex. Angry. Your mother. Your mother. Think about your mother and sex. Sex. Angry. Angry.

Remember when we yelled at you in Madison while you were taking a shower and you made fun of us? Angry. Angry. Have angry sex!!!!

How would you like more aerosol? More heat aerosol. More cigar smoke and burning rubber smoke aerosol. More white noise aerosol. More aerosol to flush out the serotonin from your brain so you will seem to be confused. No more St. John’s wort help with the aerosols.

Author:

I suppose you have been telling the guys that I’m your woman again.

Did you hear about the conversation the flea overheard between the masochist and the sadist? The masochist told the sadist “No, no no!” The sadist replied “No, no, no!!!!”

What think tank were you studying in when you hit upon the notion that resilient diplomacy was the way to defeat a resilient democracy?

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October 5

Camel:

You have been violating laws on Massachusetts books from the Pilgrims in the 1600’s. You are a sexual deviant. You need to be worked on.

Author:

You mean the wives of Massachusetts perverts have been offering my wife money to service their husbands now that they are older and my Michelle will not enter into such agreements. You are hoping that your treatment of me by carpetbaggers will frighten my Michelle into cooperating with you.

Neither myself or my sons and their grandfather would ever cooperate with you either.

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October 8

Author:

I see in the media that a Catholic Father is accused of hearing reports of child molesting and refuses to say who it was that made the report. So you are punishing the Father by accusing him of child molesting. If I had reported someone for child molesting (or even just rumors) I would be accused of being mentally ill again by NPR and John Kerry. “See Steve? What’s he doing? Give us a call so we can make asides to the hospitals.”

I would trust the Church to be a buffer with the law rather than the media.

Camel:

“I guess we will have to start over again.”

Author:

You have researched me to the n’th degree. When I lived in Bangor you accused me of molesting a baby girl when I was baby sitting in the early 60’s in Federal Way Washington. The little girl had filled her diaper and I changed her while her older brother watched.

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October 9

Camel:

We’re going to move over. You’re making it tough for us. You said you didn’t want us to be able to see your poetry.

Author:

You’re the reason no one has been able to see my websites in the various cities in which I have lived and had a website.

Michelle wishes for me to publish my poetry. She tells me she has copies of the original versions of all of my poems which she has tried to send to me several times.

My poetry is owned by INK Smudges Family Foundation and the family is in charge of it. Michelle knows I would be happy for her to publish us and her friends are urging her to do so.

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October 14

Camel:

We’re the police. You need to have your sex shut down until the change happens. You’re a spoil sport. All we have been doing is teasing you. You need to work below your level for little money. We’re going to pass you on the next police department now. Move!!! We’re not going to talk to you. We’re going to continue to do this to you. You don’t get a lawyer that would actually represent you. You’re just like your father. He was a spoil sport too. All these drugs are just to suppress your sex until you can think clearly. You still think being a radio outlaw is better than being a Navy officer. You weren’t good enough and we’re going to make an example out of you. Your family doesn’t get to have the Church or Interpol.

Author:

You’re a misogynist!

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October 17

Female camel:

My workstation is a lot faster than your 5000 series CPU. I have the Xeon version of an i7-11700. I can hit your workstation anytime I wish.

Author:

My sons told me they thought your terr cell had Fujitsu ARM CPU’s that were behind IBM workstations that were connected directly to the Internet trunk lines. Those are really, really expensive.

Later

Camel:

We’re breaking and entering your mind. You didn’t have your mother or sister in your subconscious so we are spraying you with aerosols and telling you below the threshold of hearing to imagine your mother and sister naked and so forth. We are always reminding you of the prettier girls in your high school to try to piggy back into your mind.

Author:

It’s nice of you to admit that.

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October 27

Camel:

Well, we have our women and you have your women.

Author:

Is that really your intention?

You’ve been saying into my apartment that I need to work when in fact I could hear you in the background in Madison and then here saying you didn’t want me to work. You especially don’t want me to work with computers even maintaining one that my sons can login on the Net so I must think that at my age you want to see me washing dishes in a restaurant. I can also hear you in the background saying that you think I need medicine since I am not writing much on Zyprexa but you thought I was hiding behind Geodon when I was writing all the time.

Camel:

You’re in the bottom! (He asked for the exclamation mark.)

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Halloween:

Camel:

We’re medical. We have been making you well. The things you are complaining about only happen in Russia. Why can’t you just ignore what we’re doing and become a climate activist. We could give you pointers for your website.

Author:

In Texas to be credentialed a registered nurse must attend pre-nursing at the university for three years then two years in nursing school at the medical school. For a psychiatric or other specialization like neonatal they must spend another two years at the university for a master’s degree.

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Black Thanksgiving:

Camel:

So the ends of your fingers and your genitals are bleeding a little. We’re good with ether glycol. We’re patient. After a while you will bleed a lot more. The Navy thinks they are smart by making it look like they didn’t show up so you could turn us in later. Once Navy always Navy. We’re always on the look out for pigs like you!

Author:

Actually I think it is something mixed with progesterone which is a ladies hormone like estrogen but is rumored to damage men’s bodies when compounds are invented containing it and is delivered by something like ether glycol.

More Black Thanksgiving:

Camel:

Most people are thankful for being helped. You aren’t. Your high school is a lot smarter than you are.

Author:

Still trying to start a mental war aren’t you? Especially if you think you could can get comments about Oklahoma. Everyone you know you think is smarter than a couple of flags.

Instead of getting rid of you and all your aerosols my “help” warehoused me and put your hand even farther into my pocket. Since I have a computer instead of a TV and a car you try to impress the kids with your computer which is a brand new IBM workstation today which the government would never sell to anyone without a clearance. Media articles about your computers etc is blocked and I have to wait till you can’t stand it because I wasn’t told.

Even More Black Thanksgiving:

Author:

Still trying to insult the Commonwealth Compact slush fund designated May pole for them aren’t you? You must be paid really well for trying to get your hand in my pocket and passing legislation for them. Let me tell your sponsors how well you do your job. Almost every time you yell your crappe diem at me I am really insulted.

Author again:

You must like your cozy ‘war games’ office where you sit and read from a computer screen 24 hours per day with dialogue constructed by PhD’s being flashed for you to read to me. You sound like you are really angry most of the time.

sic transit gloria (so passes glory – the Caesar according to Cicero I am told.) (absurdity according to usually an atheist but context is relevant.)

Black Friday:

Author:

So back in 69 the Rolling Stones came to Boston for a couple of concerts and there was a brief interview on TV with Jagger. The interviewer started a sentence and then stopped talking and acted expectant. Jagger said to him, “Oh, you want me to finish that sentence?”

Camel:

You think you have been kicking the stuff out of Harvard Medical School or a similar medical school don’t you? You’re queer. That means you’re a draft dodger who needs conflict resolution therapy.

Author:

When I was in the fourth grade in elementary school after my achievement assessments my mother was called to the school to see how well I was doing. The teacher showed my mother my scores and said to her, “Why don’t we take him?” The ladies say that means they wanted me to have officer’s training for my military.

Black Friday Day +1

Camel:

We want you to adopt the Russian position rather than the Church position. We want you to resolve your conflict by admitting that the United States is just as good a country as Canada is. You need British conflict resolution therapy. You’re always trying to run away just as you are about to be drafted. NATO is our wall and the British are in charge of administering conflict resolution therapy and drugs to soften up your recalcitrance. The NATO doctors in California from New Zealand, Austria and Vietnam are going to help the British secret army. It’s not true that someone in this manner told you that Canada, Belgium and Poland asked for your NATO service but have been refused. This time we are asking the police to pick you up and hold you for six months in a state hospital and take all your possessions again so that people will forget to try to hear you.

Female Camel:

You lost. You lost. You lost the Vietnam War. See? How do you like your own treatment?

Dec 6

Author:

When John McCain was running in the Republican Primaries against George Bush the media said that McCain was not born in the United States so he could not run for president. His father happened to have taken his family with him to Panama Canal Zone military base – his father was an admiral or something. Then he ran against Barack Obama in 2008 and Obama was accused of being a “birther” because his father wasn’t an American. How do you like your own treatment?

Al Gore claimed he was cheated in Florida during his election contest with George Bush and John Kerry claimed he won Ohio in 2004. How do you like your own treatment?

I see what Trump is doing but I find it offensive especially when there are any number of real Republicans qualified.

Still I am an Independent to the right of center.

Camel:

Alright, we didn’t like what Social Security was writing in its websites especially about psychiatric drugs. See, I’m being conciliatory. I’m medical so I know how to do that. I want to accompany you everywhere and get your glory for you.

Afternoon Camel:

We cut the spines out of white fish and eat them. We going to put you in an orange jump suit and spray your spine to relax it and make you lose your potty. Are you cold? Have a little carbon monoxide to turn you cherry red and make you nice and warm. We like you better with weak internal organs and muscles. You don’t have the proper security clearance to publish poetry so stop writing. We hate your new poem “Touch That.” Massachusetts voters are tired of complaints.

F me. F me. F me. I was being conciliatory and look what you did to me. How could only 19% of the vote do all of those things.

The Next Afternoon:

Author:

Every time you step out of a building to have a cigaret you should think about me.

So the State Dept always seems to think broadcasting crap into my apartment is a good way to clean the military?

Early Dec 13:

Female camel:

This is the way it is done in Russia.

Author:

You mean this is the way the British NATO secret army does it in Canada.

Camel:

We’ve been making you tough. This is the way its done. We won’t be satisfied until you are grateful and do something for us.

Author:

When I graduate high school I was 6’1″ and 135 lbs. More than 50 years later I have a hundred pounds of you on me and the aerosols embedded in me make my muscles weak.

I remember thinking in the seventh grade that from my father’s complaints that even after winning World War 2 you must have been spraying him with aerosols as well.

Dec 17 late:

Author:

Refusing vaccines and masks and other antidotes to Covid 19 must make you feel good about going outdoors to smoke. Mixing “smoke” with my food and medicine must make you feel better as well.

I was told you have been calling talk radio in Canada and bragging about how great your IBM workstations are. I think a little checking will show that union shops are selling second hand from the government when they upgrade every other year to new versions.

All my sons and I can afford without security clearances are junior college and World War 2 lend lease from China. I hope my sons like the University of Paris and open source.

Nearly Christmas Eve:

Camel:

This is the way we like it for Steve. A small studio with the windows shut and aerosols to make white noise static on a cold snowy night in Duluth. We think Steve should have cigaret and cigar smoke etc pumped into his room. Its the way they wanted it to be in Duluth.

Author:

I haven’t read the book Duluth by the homosexual author Gore Vidal so let me guess that you are getting advice from the Mayo Clinic about how to hypnotize me into taking orders from you rather than helping my INK Smudges Family Foundation however I can.

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Early Christmas Morning:

Author:

I seem to have gotten everything I ever wanted but every time I got something a camel like you showed up!

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Christmas +1:

Author:

“Gun check!

Would you step out of your vehicle, please sir!!

Oh, don’t worry – he won’t bite you.”

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New Year’s Eve 2021:

Author: I was just reading an article in the Washington Post about “rat line” toughening at VMI.

You poo-poo what you are doing here most of the time but occasionally you say you are making me me tough while at other times you say you are going to break me.

You have been using drugs on me that cause chlor-acne on my head and genitals and that is supposed to making me tough and more susceptible to below the threshold of hearing abuse at the same time.

So you claim then that you are successful at making me tough and then you say you wrote my poetry for me but you admit at the same time you are not in the military but I did not pass hazing at the companies for which I worked which is similar to fraternity hazing at universities.

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Nearing national championship game:

Author:

So this is the way you make national championship athletic teams – bull. You aren’t making astronauts and submariners either. You have a political agenda and you are trying to intimidate me. You have been working overtime here and at my father’s place to create a total hate experience and then you are crying like a grade school bully who can’t get his victims to tell everyone that he is a hero.

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Camel:

Shaddup Jesus, I’m talking to your mother!

Author:

So in the 8th grade I said something to my mother about smoking. So now for nearly 60 years I have been given the smoking test – though mostly behind my back.

I have not read anything in the media about taxes on marijuana and it has been ages since I read that taxes on cigarets were too high (and no one has said anything about it either.)

You remember your crappe here when you step outside to smoke instead of choke everyone on your insolence.

Author:

So you seem to think I have overactive anti-smoking brain cells when in fact I have almost never mentioned smoking. I did notice that while I was in Houston and going to TRIMS that I seemed to be getting an aerosol that packed me with nicotine over a couple of months and then being taken cold turkey off of the nicotine or similar drug repeatedly.

Hi Jerry. I hear someone found notes in one of your files that started in March 1974 when I was in Ponca City, Oklahoma.

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Author:

On a cold and icy January 19th:

I have barely ever mentioned MIT, the Navy or my high school but I guess without hearing what you said it must have been nasty.

It is not said much but I guess it is true that what is 35% to 40% in Massachusetts is 10% to 15% in Oklahoma and it is that way also across the Southwest and the South.

As I read about the football championship a couple of weeks back I was thinking that all of the changes in the conferences was unnecessary. I did hear some rumors of the reformation of the Southwest Conference and the Big East however. The rumors were that the Southwest Conference offered membership to the Sooners and Cowboys and the U of New Mexico and the Big East offered membership to Army and Navy.

Camel:

I know all about you but you don’t know anything about me.

I’m going to wait you out. That’s what you said you were doing. You said that since your father you have always thought that shortly we would be leaving. I’m going to wait you out till you’re dead.

I have plenty of money working as Navy security for the State Dept. The president has the secret service, the Supreme Court has the Federal Marshals and the State Dept has Navy security. When we ask someone to do something to degrade your life after showing them our identification if they don’t do it we put them in mental hospitals. That should be verifiable by you since several different police organizations have yelled at you from the safety of hidden microphones and when you went to sleep instead they called the fire department ambulance and had you put away for several months so they could run off with all of your belongings.